I’m uncomfortable in the public-prophet role.
I love to encourage others, not accuse them of being even worse than they previously imagined. I mean, I like ANY impact in ministry, because it makes Dave’sFlesh feel worthy, but encouragement is so-much-more fun for me than accusation. I am much-more comfortable as the chief confessor, than as the chief accuser. Unless. I’m mentoring someone one-on-one, know them well, know they are humble enough to welcome accusation, and feel pretty sure they would be helped by confessing sin to which they are blind. Then I can be ruthless, knowing they need and want my help. Hard for me to be ruthless in public posts. Whyzat?
I’m guessing because I don’t do conflict well. My skin is not as thick as my flesh would like folks to believe. I don’t like adversarial relationships. All my life I’ve worked hard to be on the good side of EVERYone. I don’t like criticism. I like admiration, and even more — being envied. I’m especially averse to ridicule. So I work hard to avoid criticism/ridicule and that causes me to be uncomfortable in a public-prophet role. And.
Humble people welcome exposure to their blindness, but there are few of those in this world, outside the Church, or inside. And. If I were a humble man, I wouldn’t be so conflict-avoidant, criticism-avoidant, ridicule-avoidant. However Jesus seems intent on nudging me outside my comfort zone, against my flesh’s better judgment, into occasional Saturday posts that are scary for me, as the chief accuser.
— Dave McCarty, Gospel Friendships, the reluctant prophet, sometimes