Intimate Feast

Intimate Feast

By Shasta Monet

Since I can remember, fear has always been something I have had to battle in my life

From things as simple as the what ifs of every day moments, to big circumstances like death.

Now in my 30s and a mother, I can see how fear could really destroy my life.

This year the Lord spoke BRAVE. Wow was I not prepared for what that would mean fully. Literally as I felt that I was instantly hit with fear. “Now what is going to happen..” is what went through my head…

But now at the end of June, I can see more of His plan.

Brave doesn’t always mean battling BIG things, like David & Goliath. I am learning that we walk out being brave in something as simple as praising God. The Word says to approach the throne boldly. I didn’t realize until this current season I am walking in, that even in the midst of our relationship with the Lord, we need to be brave.

Since I met the Lord at 16, I have always had a picture in my head of how I thought having a relationship with the Lord was “supposed to look”, and I lived everyday frustrated because I wasn’t there yet. Even more upset when I seemed to be the only one struggling (which now obviously I realize wasn’t true). This year I am understanding how when Christ says to “come to me” and invites us into an intimate relationship with Him, there are no rules. There is no script we are to follow or a time line of things to happen in order to become intimate. It truly IS just a relationship.

Just like in any other relationship, we desire that relationship because something about that other individual makes us happy. We can feel free and loved for who we are. Not to mention we simply just have fun with that person. So if this is true of relationships, why do we put God in a different box?

I am not talking about worship and honor, obviously that makes Him different than wordly relationships, but the concept of turning to our relationships when we are in need, should be the same with Him.

Song of Solomon 1:3-6 says, “As an apple tree among the trees of the forest, so is my beloved among the young men. With great delight I sat in His shadow, and His fruit was sweet to my taste. He brought me to the banqueting house, and His banner over me was love, sustain me with raisins, refresh me with apples, for I am sick with love. His left hand is under my head, and His right hand embraces me!

I am tired of living a fearful life. That fear leads me to want to schedule everything in my life, to be in control so that perhaps I could keep things from happening. But the reality is that I miss out on living life that way. Sure the unknown is uncomfortable and scary..but the adventure is also beautiful and fun!

I am who I am for the fact that God made me that way. He saw beauty and power in the way He created me, so why wouldn’t I want to hear more from Him in regards to my life?

Psalms 23:5 says, “you prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; you anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows”

I never really understood how sharing a feast in front of your enemies could do any good. But this morning the Lord showed me that it isn’t the eating the feast that does anything, its the intimate relationship that is victorious. In many cultures, sharing food together is a very powerful covenant. Even on the silly side, we view dating someone as sharing dinner together. Its intimate because it is just you and that person(s), and you are spending time together. So why in front of the enemies then? I believe because it sets as a reminder who really is in charge.

Our praise to God never falters, it is our safety net. Yes, how we praise can change moment to moment and by different circumstances. But praise doesn’t change. Neither does our salvation or intimacy (not talking about the ‘feeling’ part).

What a beautiful freedom that is!! To not be worried about my relationship with God. No matter my circumstances or emotions, I KNOW that I have a relationship with the Lord & it is GOOD.

Now I am starting to see how faith happens…

Shasta Monet

lives in Oregon, USA with her daughter, CharlieMae and loves being a mom.

I am in love with Jesus Christ my Savior and will not give an offering to my Lord that costs me nothing….

I live by my heart as most would say. This brings alot of blessings and some not so blessings.

I just love life, love people, crazy dancing in Walmart. Rainy days on the Coast. Colors. Coffee. Music. Photography. Want to live my life full of love for God, myself and others.

The living must die so that the dying may live ~ Max Lucado

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